Missing Pieces

">play a game after the meal. To my horror, we chose
Since last month, it has seemed like aliens may haveto play "Cranium" and break up into three groups of
kidnapped me during the night and performedfour. Cranium calls for the teams to act out a name
experimental brain surgery on me--removing keyor activity, sculpt or draw a concept or word, give
abilities such as memory, conceptualization andcorrect multiple choice answers to questions and to
comprehension. From what I can piece together, Ihum or whistle a song.
awakened to a typical morning of feeding the pets,I was chosen to act out a phrase which was "Saved
making coffee and eating breakfast. The first signby the bell". At that moment I knew that I had
that things were a miss was when basic one syllableforgotten how to play charades, I frantically tried to
words escaped my ability to speak. I tried not to talkact out "Saved" by looking up at the sky with the
too much for fear I would be found out!open arms and as angelic a look as I could muster on
I made a stab at covering up my loss of language bymy anxious face (instead of acting out "sounds-like
talking around the lost word, like shadowing in ashaved") which completely went over everyone's
painting. "Honey, could you please hand me thehead. During this same charade the sand got stuck in
wonderful piece of art that my brother gave us filledthe timer glass expanding the length of my charade
with coffee?" My husband did look at me skepticallyfrom one minute to three painful minutes of spastic
and replied "you mean the coffee mug?" but I smuglyacting. I had at one point tried to make the motion
wrote these slight accusations off as typicalof a dainty tinkling dinner bell with my hand only to
responses from my curmudgeon husband.be told by my husband later in the car ride home
As the week bore on I encountered more evidencethat I looked like a spastic person trying to get
that sections of my brain were definitely not beingsomething off of my hand. So for three minutes I
used. During a Coaching session I tried to ask verykept going back and forth between open arms with
simple questions volleying back the conversationa beaming face towards God and moving my body
instead of giving lasered insight such as, "how do youas if I was the clapper inside of a gigantic bell. Suffice
see the situation?" which can sound like brilliantit to say, no one guessed the phrase.
Coaching instead of someone pawing aroundLater during our game, one of the teams pulled a
desperately in the caverns of their mind for lostcard with the name Jacqueline Kennedy Onnasis. The
words.player acting out her name mimed a hat case, pulling
During this period I had several situations that calledout one of the little pillbox hats that Jackie was so
for thinking quickly on my feet. I called my bestfamous for wearing. Someone guessed the answer
friend, Nancy, for insight on my dilemma however;within 45 seconds. I commenced to panic as I
coming up with the words to explain my demiserealized that I wouldn't have come close to figuring
proved to be just as painful as the situations thatout how to calmly mime a box much less the pill box
prevented access to my words. I'm afraid Nancyhat inside. All I could think of was miming Jackie's
began checking her caller ID since she soon becamehorror as Jack's brains flew on to her lap in the
mysteriously unavailable. I suspect my being aCadillac.
wordless wonder had become as frustrating to herBy the end of the evening people seemed to avoid
as listening to someone with a severe speechengaging in conversation with me dropping their eyes
impediment go into a lengthy discourse about theas they scooted past me to fill up their little ceramic
history of time.container for a hot beverage. I tried to contact
The culmination of the misery caused by my brain'sfriends on the receptacle that allows us to speak
inability to retrieve words became obvious during awith one another while we are in separate places, but
friend's historically fun birthday party. Traditionally,it seems that now nobody will talk to me!
twelve friends gather for the celebration to dine and