Stroke, Prostate Cancer, Laughter and the Melting Mood

My recovery from a stroke suffered in 2001 seemeduncontrollability that plagues me. Technically, the
glacially slow while it was taking place. Now, howeverIsymptom may result from lesions in the internal
feel almost completely recovered, and the difficultiescapsule and thalamus, basal ganglion, hypothalamus
with my right hand and arm and the speech problemsand ventral pons or from a cortical infarct in the
are like dim recollections of something that happenedterritory supplied by the superior division of the
decades ago.I still have difficulty with cuff buttons onmiddle cerebral artery.Such laughter is often
starched cuffs. My handwriting is slow. My singingassociated with weeping. I have not done much
voice is on furlough and recent attempts to throw ablubbering since my stroke, but I did some research
ball have been errant embarrassments, but I haven'ton these matters In recent weeks I have discovered
taken the time to practice in order to restore eitherin myself new or at least altered emotions. I am not
of those activities to previous levels of ability. Still,merely getting in touch with my feminine side but
my golf game is pretty much back to where it was. Ibeing overwhelmed by it. About a month ago I was
am exultant at having escaped the permanentinjected with a time-released dose of Lupron, an
serious disabilities that are visited on so many strokeactivator of female hormones. Each day I also ingest
victims.One persistent symptom is pathologicalone tablet of Casodex, which along with the injection
laughter. When I think of something funny or justserves to limit my ordinary testosterone production,
vaguely silly or ironic, I crack up so badly that I amthereby shrinking my hyperplastic prostate gland and
unable to speak for a minute or two. I never,stopping the development of the malignancy
previous to stroke, exhibited such idiotic laughter. Oncontained therein. The doctors told me I could
the plus side, my hysterics can be contagious. Inexpect weight gain, loss of muscle mass, diminution
social situations I often manage to get myof energy, hot flashes, possible development of
companions laughing with nearly the samebreast tissue and loss of body hair.