Multiple Sclerosis and Cognitive Problems

Boy, do I feel stupid today! I submitted an articledoesn't come out! Most people are OK with that but
yesterday to an ezine and I forgot to put mysome people seem to be upset that I don't
website in the resource box. How will anyone buy myremember their name. I'm also always losing things. I
products or signup for my newsletter without mycan be reading a piece of paper, set it down and
website address? How stupid could I be but thatwhen I come back 5 minutes later I can't find the
leads me into today's article, cognitive problems withpiece of paper. My office looks like an atomic bomb
multiple sclerosis.hit it. I tell myself to pick things up but it never
First of all, I'm not mentally handicapped although atseems to get done. I have about 75 post-it notes on
times I can be mentally slower. It's just my MStwo separate desks in my office and I just keep
reminding me that I have some cognitive problems. Ipiling them on.
have two college degrees and I've owned severalI've had this problem since I don't know when. I've
small businesses in the past 23 years which havenever been good at directions. If I'm being told
done very well. What I am is a man with multipledirections I write them down. If someone say north
sclerosis which affects my cognitive thinking at times.and south or east and west I always say. Is that a
In the case yesterday I was unfamiliar with the termright or left? I've lived in my little town for 4 years
resource box and didn't bother to look it up. I couldnow and I still couldn't tell you if I'm on the north side
have looked at other submitted articles to see whatof the tracks. When I had my carpet cleaning
it was but I didn't. That's my loss and why I'm writingbusiness from '88 to '93 I would be driving down the
this article so close to the first one!highway looking for an exit. When the exit came up I
In 2001 I was working in Minneapolis at a companywould have a flash of panic because I couldn't
that sold cell phones. I started in April of 2001 andremember which direction to go. I knew where I
quit in October of 2002. Part of the reason why Iwanted to go but I couldn't remember how to get
quit was because the cell phones were becoming toothere. Figure eight exits would drive me bonkers. I'm
complicated for me. We sold all the major brands oflike that with a lot of things these days. I get the big
phones. I remember going to meetings that the cellpicture of what I want to accomplish but I can't
phone companies would have once in a while. I wouldseem to figure out how to get from point A to point
sit in the meetings and after about 20 minutes myB. It can be frustrating to say the least!
mind would start wandering. Dick was a friend ofThere's an old saying that I say every once in a
mine at the company. I'd think to myself, I wonderwhile. I'll use a substitute word for the profanity.
where Dick wants to eat lunch today or I'd wonder ifPeople of my generation say, throw that crap against
Doug wants to come with us. On real importantthe wall and see what sticks. That's exactly how my
points that I missed I would say to myself, I'll askbrain seems to work nowadays. Nothing seems to
Doug about that later knowing full well I probablystick. If I'm with 3 or 4 people and everyone is
wouldn't remember what I'd missed.talking I will hear everything being said but nothing
Another cognitive problem I have is short termstays in my head. You might as well be talking to a
memory loss. This is doctor documented and is achair or wall because I won't retain anything the next
common symptom for people with MS. Myday unless it was earth shattering news. That can
neurologist sent me to a psychologist one day whoget very frustrating not only for me but also the
was to test my memory. I used to be very good atpeople I'm talking to. I've learned to never leave
remembering the names of people. Now, unless Ihome without a piece of paper and a pen so I can
repeat their name a few times while I'm talking tomake notes. These are just a few of the cognitive
them I just don't remember their names. I'llproblems that I have but there are more.
remember their faces but sometimes the name just